Today, five years ago...

Saturday, 12th of March 2011

Today, five years ago, I delivered a cute little baby to this wild world. It was not his time yet, but how could we refuse him to come?

It was Sunday morning. I and my husband, Leo, was sleeping late, around 3 or 4 a.m. Suddenly I had a terrible stomachache, around 6 a.m. I thought it was only because I have to go to the toilet. Then I went to the toilet and after that continued my sleep. But the stomachache was still there. Again I woke up at 10 a.m. I thought something wrong was happening. Leo also woke up at that time. We thought that this is what we called contraction. Then Leo called the doctor and he asked me to come to the hospital if the contraction is still going. Since it wasn't stop at all, in spite it became worse, then we went to hospital. There were no other kind of vehicle available except Leo's old yellow motorcycle. Luckily we have a friend who has another kind of motorcycle. So with his motorcycle, we went to the hospital. I was screaming all the way to the hospital. I knew that people were looking at me while I screamed, especially at a traffic light. But I did not care. It was really hurt.

Thanks God, we arrived at the hospital. People were looking at us. They looked confuse, see a pregnant woman with her husband on a motorcycle and so obvious that it was the time for her. I could see the question inside their mind, why do they use motorcycle? :D

The doctor was not in the hospital yet. So I had to be patient, not to push it at that moment. But the water suddenly broke. Lucky me, the doctor arrived at the hospital after few minutes. And it took only minutes, I delivered my baby to the world. Leo was accompany me in the room, I was really happy because of that. It was only two of us at that time. And I was so happy that I did not have to spend many hours to get him out of my stomach :D

Gosh...I cannot explain what I felt at that moment. I was so damn happy. All the struggle, all the difficulty, all the problem seemed to be disappear. And after few days, we gave the name to our baby, Wenseslaus Leon Effan Waranggana...

Four years ago, it was Effan's first birthday. There were bad news and also good news that day. My grandmother passed away, that's the bad news. I hadn't had time to come and see her before she passed away. Also I couldn't bring Effan to see her. And the good news is Ayah started to work at his new office.

Effan's first year was full of difficulties. But I really thanks God, that He let us passed all the difficulties.

Three years ago was Effan's second birthday. I got fever at that time, then I did not come to my office. I was glad that I could spent all day long with my handsome birthday boy. It was no celebration for this birthday. We just bought a birthday cake and pray together after Leo came home. At that moment, Effan did not really understand about the meaning of birthday, that's why there were no celebration.

Breastfeeding is only for child under two years old. It was a difficult homework for me to stop breastfeeding Effan. But, with good collaboration between me and Leo, within few days, he just stop breastfeeding.

Two years ago was Effan's third birthday. Bunda was still in recovery period after having a surgery. Then Bunda could spent the happy day with Effan. And together with Gayek, we bought a birthday cake for Effan. And that day was Thursday, it was not Effan's school day. So we just spent time at home.

And on the next day, there was a celebration of Effan's friend birthday at his school. I did not manage to celebrate Effan's birthday at school. I thought that he still do not understand about the meaning of birthday. But I was wrong. In the celebration of his friends' birthday, I could see that he envy him for that.

One year ago was Effan's forth birthday. I do not want to make the same mistake with the previous year, days before his birthday, I talked with his teacher that we want to celebrate his birthday at school. And I prepared all the things relevant for that. The birthday cake, the goody bag, and also the proposal to my boss so I can get one day leave for that day. :)

Unfortunately, Leo was so hectic with his job and could not manage to attend Effan's birthday party at school. But Effan was so happy for the party and I am glad that I made a good decision. And he like his birthday cake a lot. Even I did not eat the cake at all!! :D

And today is Effan's fifth birthday. I woke up at 2 a.m. CET to say happy birthday to him. But as usual, he did not pay attention with the thing that I said. Huhuu....so sad for that. I wish I could spend the whole day with you. Just like the last four years. But I could not. Then I will just pray for you, honey...wish you become a good, clever, nice boy and afraid of God.

As you said, "I am not a baby, Bunda. I am boy", you already a grown up boy now. Wish you become a better and better person every day.

Happy birthday honey....Bunda will always love you ;)

PS: Ayah...I think it is already the time to have another child. He is already a big baby now ;)